I’ve had a blog that I have been working on for a few weeks now, but after today’s run I have decided to cut to the chase and forgo the blah blah blah….
I have 20 days left until I make a go at running sub 2:43 for 26.2 miles at CIM. I have been training for this race since August. Training has not gone perfect. There have been some great workouts and some crappy ones. There has been a light that gives me hope that it’s going to be a reality (qualifying.) Then there has been some dark moments of complete doubt and lack of confidence- missed training due to being sick, sub par races.
Frankly, it feels like an emotional running roller coaster. This is something I am not willing to let affect the rest of my life although I am sure it does somehow. I have three young girls who depend on me to be their nurturing mother and role model. I have a wonderful husband who needs me to be his rock because his job is so volatile and unpredictable. The last thing I need is for my running to go haywire, this is the one thing that helps balance me to achieve the super mom/wife role. I have decided today that haywire is not an option.
I am going to commit these last few weeks to putting my head on right to ensure a chance at running my best on December 6th. I know my body can do it, now I need to believe 100%. At one point I struggled with the possibility of running the mark. But today I decided that I need to move forward. Take the chance and see what happens.
Have you ever had non-stellar training prep for a full marathon and had a great race regardless?